"from today onwards, i will return back to what i am years back; policy of isolation. i am sorry if i have hurt anyone's feelings during the time when i tried to open up and during the time when i became what they call quai lan. i am sorry mum. you always told me to be more open as you are worried that i might be too anti-social. but this is not who i am; i am not someone who is outgoing, talkative or open. i will be who i am before. i have prayed for the right path. and i believe this is the one." - azhar



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"i make mistakes; please tell me if i'm wrong; tell me if i turned arrogant; tell me if i turned bad; please.." - azhar



ALL GUYS ARE PERVERTS. THOSE WHO SAY THEY AREN'T ARE GAY OR LYING - a friend of mine


-reply by azhar -
ur talking CRAP... not all guys are perverts....yes..guyz watch porn,etc...this is normal....those hu acted out the scenes in pornography are perverts not the OTHERS....i believe gays are also perverts....perhaps even worse than normal guyz....perhaps you somehow hate guyz....but please....not ALL guyz are perverts....watching pornography is NOT pervetic....acting it out towards a girl IS....hope this message is brought clear to the minority group of girls hu somehow hate guys... think twice before you make such baseless comments....there are many examples of guys who take care of their spouse or girlfriend well....thank you...sorry if the language used is too negative...
-end of reply-


"dance has changed me from a nobody into a somebody" - azhar

people change...
people lie...


"love is never a choice; it is fated" - azhar


well...........recently i made a long-lost friend of mine.......we were of the same primary school last time...he was a funny guy.....well..when we chat together in msn...he kept asking me if i had a girlfriend or not....well...my answer was no.....no need lah..and so on..my usual excuses....



"loving someone is fake; missing someone is true" - azhar



well....dun be surprised but i think i'm the only guy in school among my frens who have never share his crush or his dream girl....so i was not really shocked or irritated when my long-lost kept asking me hu my girlfren is....perhaps he do not believe that i have none....it's not because i dun have time..



"always share your knowledge with your friends" - rohana, azhar's mother



it's because i dun juz anyhow juz hook up a girl without thinking of the future...i'm a guy hu will lawayz give the best i can to the person i luv...if i believe i am still no good enough to share my bizarre luv with a special one..then i'll wait...wait till i know the time is right..i dun wan..and never one a broken heart....



"my luv is bizarre; not suicide or true" - azhar



besides that....i kinda have a very high "standard" in terms of personality and character...10 times higher than any of my frens in class such as faiz, faris or even rashid..i dunno why...my heart juz can't can't seem to melt....i luv girls....but there is this huge rock that can never be crushed...it can only be melted.....by who....i hope i'll find her soon.....



"when you see me cry or look up after receiving a result; it's not because i'm happy; it's because i'm scared if God will take everything from me one day" - azhar



in terms of looks my "standard" isn't too low or too high....moderate...guyz hu say they priotise character than looks of a girl are mostly lying...i believe so.....cause i used to be one of them...and i lied....looks are actually an obvious and fundamental "criteria"....



"i dance for passion. not fame" - azhar , with alterations by DJ Danny



wad will happen if my parents leave forever now..when i'm schooling now....my life would be destroyed....without my parents..my ailing parents....i would have to take care of my brother..my very sicked brother.....out of many things that my frens can hlp me, this is the one of those they would not be able to....



"without my friends, my life is like a bottle filled with vacuum" - azhar



cause it takes lots of patience and maturity when handling with such problems.....experience too....if i say i'm not shy about my brother's condition..i lied...i wish my brother would recover....or i have a normal sibling...like my other frens....i wish my parents could live until i start working...or best....until i'm married....



"O" levels is the decideng factor...........i lied...it's not "O" levels...it's God....


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