"i cannot take it anymore. it's just too burdensome and overwhelming for me. i am now officially the second father for the family. everyone depend on me. almost all my family members. at home, i have to look after my family. my mum is fast ailing. she's getting weaker day by day. it's obvious; signs of ageing. it's difficult for me to focus on my studies now. everytime when i study, it will be cut off by my mum as she needs my assistance. i am also falling sick. but a miracle happened a few days ago when i got the strength to do my practicals even though i'm sick. up till now, i don't know where i accumulated that sheer strength and courage. my body is getting weaker. i'm getting silent. i have fallen." - azhar


i have fallen.
this is the route for you to overtake me.


"i write not for sympathy; not for attention either. i write because i need to express my feelings; because i believe keeping it to myself is almost equivalent to self-destruction" - azhar


"take a balloon and keep inserting gas and pressure inside it and it will explode. take another balloon and keep inserting gas and pressure inside it again. this time, make holes on the balloon beforehand; it will not explode" - azhar